Our Sweet Story

13th February 2008

I really don know wat happen to me recently?

Stress ?

Tired ??

Mental Problem ???

Serious Depression ????

OR

EVERYTHING!!!!

Went to tour around with Calfred... When to take our lunch together and collected my Hard Disk from him. At around 5plus he send me home to collect my clothes and bring me to Lessie house to get the HAMSTER from her... Now I got 2 little baby with me as TanTan pass away on the "CHU ER" which really make dam sad that day.. Cause he is my favourite hamster... He always have alot of previlage in all the new equip that I bought.. Now that he is gone, no longer with me.. But he will always be in my heart...

When up to Cheryl's house to have dinner and off we go to Cheryl's old house to help her move her stuff and also help LPK to move all the stuffs to his house too... tired...

Reach home around 10plus and at about 11.3opm...

ST JAMES TIME!!!!!

Reach there around 12midnight with Liyn, Cheryl, Max, Liyn's sis and her bro-in-law..... Suprisingly today all drunk flat! flat!! FLAT!!! Cause the are 3 incident/accident happen on us.... 1st - Cheryl vomitted on the spot right on our table, 2nd - Liyn got a deep long cut on her right hand... 3rd - I GOT A BLUE BLACK ON MY KNEE CAUSE I FALL OFF THE STEP!!!!! NB!!! hahahahaha.... Fun but all gone dead flat with 4 bottle of Hessney Cannon and 3 bucket of Beer... The whole night we were dinking in NIT!! OR SHOTS only.... hahaha...

Although at that moment I was already drunk but my heart is wreaking like hell, I really don know why? I felt like crying even though, I really enjoy myself alot there... REALLY feel like crying out loundly till everyone can hear me crying... But too bad the music there is super lounder then my voice...

As on the way home... I recieved a call from mum, I really cannot remember how we started to quarrel.. But I could remember clearly the tone that I talk to her is super harsh... (I really hate myself for doing that) It's my 1st time talking this way to her... I felt so bad and guilty now... Tears are rolling down my cheeks as I type all this... I really don't know why I will lost control till I say many hurtful, painful and ugly words to hurt someone who is so important to me and I love so much that I never want to lost... I know I hurt her now... She must be very sad and crying now.... I seriously don know how to face her tomorrow.. Where by, she love me so much, so much but yet I just hurt her without even thinking much.... JUST what the FUCK is wrong with me..... (can someone just slap me to my sense?)

This time even a million sorry can't heal her wounds.. But I really wish that I can have the courage to say sorry to her... I guess I am really facing alot of problems, stress, and what so ever till I got no where to express or vent it out...

Anyway I also have to Thanks my sister Pauline.. She have help me alot last night... Sometime I am really wandering why I am just not as muture and strong like my Younger Sister? Why I am always so useless???? WTF MAN @#$%^& !!!!

Well, after I reach Pei Yi house, Mei Mei called me and talk to me also all the sms she send... I really felt alot alot better after talking to her... She seems to really understand me after I said a few sentences....

Thanks Girl.... I LOVE YOU...
Thanks for everything,
and sorry to make you worry...

* I really need to get out and relax to destress myself....

I really love you as much as you love me...

I really don't mean it...

I am really sorry...